Thursday, November 29, 2018

What Type of World Would You Create?

I can't even believe I am 40 years old.  I have officially entered a new category by which I only previously assessed those in their 40s, well before I entered this realm: OLD.   Of course with my age I have learned a few things too.  Not only have I come to grasp that life is rather unpredictable, and that there are joys to be found in areas I never knew, but also I have learned first hand of some of the greatest pains in life.

Tuesday, March 6, 2018


I imagine we all imagine.  And we do it all the time.  We find ourselves thinking, dreaming, hoping for a variety of things.  It is probably a bit more fanciful as kids than as adults but we don't even fully stop imagining.  And yet, our imagination doesn't always become reality.  It is probably why it becomes rather tame and tempered over time, because of the many disappointments.  That's probably not all bad. 

Monday, February 12, 2018

All Alone Wrestling With God


     So there was Jacob...on the run. The con man had been conned by his duplicitous father-in-law. But running from his father-in-law would threaten his safety. Because running from him meant running back toward his brother…the very brother who years earlier wanted to kill him.
    We can’t quite feel the exact nature of pain and turmoil that Jacob was in, but we can at least understand it was a tumultuous time.  He realizes in just a short time his path is going to cross with Esau’s.  

Monday, January 22, 2018

What I Didn't Know About Prayer

I used to think I knew quite a bit about history, but then I listened to a history professor lecture.  It all pointed out the great chasm between what I thought I knew and actually didn't know.  Of course there are many things I do, and I do well.  But I have also watched people play the sports I've tried, or instruments I've played, and I have soon realized their understanding of it is many degrees higher than mine because their proficiency in it is way above mine.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

What is the SUM of my life?

How does one adequately and accurate measure up the sum of his/her life?  As a follower of Christ I cannot deny there is a plethora of things I am called to that gives me space to begin to measure my life and determine areas in which I can grow, have grown, and yet need to grow.  It becomes a bit more complex though in real time.  There is no day of my existence in which I can just see a scorecard and check boxes.  So why live like there is? 

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

The EMPTY Days

People look to me to be strong.  I get up everyday and have the responsibility of looking after my kids, all three of them.  Collectively they have the energy of a small army.  I too have responsibility to take care of and provide for my wife.  Fortunately she is pretty autonomous, but still I know those times in which I need to be there with her during her own trying times and painful moments of this journey. That is when I need to have something to give her.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

The Blessing of NOT KNOWING - Reflecting on Max's 2nd birthday

Pure joy!!! (and this, just 5 mins after throwing up)

I speak for myself when I say, "I know so little."  And as life moves on by, seasons shift from one into another, and the number of our years of existence span longer and longer, we prove how little we really know.  But it is in this "not knowing" wherein we can then learn what was otherwise foreign to us  (enough philosophical introspection already). 

Just about two and a half years ago my wife and I received the great news that we would be having our third child.  Given as we were wanting a third, the news was welcomed with extreme joy and excitement.  It is a big deal to have a child, and somehow the novelty of it doesn't wear off just because it is your third.